Tuesday, March 21, 2006

God has a funny sense of humor!

So I tried to put a picture, but blogspot is not cooperating. I leave for TZ tomorrow, and I am thrilled, but not so thrilled about the winter storm that has arrived! Schools are delayed and closed, snow is blowing and drifting, cars are sliding off of of the road, and I have a lot to do! Even with all of the my planning ahead, I still have stuff to do! 4-6 inches by the end of the day. Thankfully it is the last snow I will see for several years!

Aside from my frustration with the snow, life is good! I am extremely excited, sad, happy, joyous, and fearful all at once! I have found myself repeatedly saying..."Just get me on that plane!"

Goodbyes have been hard, I think I might have cried enough to put a dent in the drought in Tanzania, but God has been faithful and been my comforter.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Sun changes things...

I got what I asked for. A few weeks ago I longed for a solitary beach, a place where I could be by myself, drown myself in a book and process all that is taking place. This wednesday I boarded a plane headed for Fort Lauderdale. There were many reasons for this trip, the aforementioned time on the beach, one last visit with daddy-o and a surprize for my aunt who was also coming to town. I was literally in Southern Florida for less than 48 hours, but we managed to cram alot into the 48 hours, including a book read, and a sunburn.

Friday started a weekend I have both longed for and longed to avoid. I said goodbye to my dad, and aunts and uncles friday morning, all of saying the typical, "it's only four years", "we'll come visit," or "we'll somehow get you home for a vacation." To be honest, it was the longest hour of my life so far. I didn't sleep well last night, and so I assume I will cry sometime today yet again because I have noticed a correlation in how little sleep I get and how easily I cry.

As for the preparation for Tanzania is concerned, I am packed, and I long to catch an early flight, and avoid all of these goodbye's. Healthy, I know! The only thing that is not falling together too well are the new glasses. Yep. I am officially "four eyed," for the first time ever in my life, on a permanent basis anyhow. (I had reading glasses in college, but abruptly lost them upon graduation.) I got the first pair almost two weeks ago. After multiple times back to get them adjusted, I had to order new lenses because the girl adjusting them the fourth time ruined the lenses. It took a week for new lenses to come in. They arrived the evening before I left for Florida. They didn't seem quite right when I put them on, but I figured it was just my eyes adjusting. After two days of cleaning them, I noticed that no matter how much I cleaned them, I still was squinting to see things and could actually see better without them. On a whim, I put them on upside down, and wow...the clarity! So this morning, I am waiting for the doors to the optometrist to open to ask them how they managed to mix up the lenses...and then ask them how they plan on getting me a new pair, that I can see through before I leave the country.

All complaining aside, I am thankful that this appears to be the only hitch so far...I am still waiting to have my extra baggage request approved by the airline.

Some pictures for you, of the last week!

Friday, March 03, 2006

I am thankful for God's calling. I am thankful for friends who are in a similar state in life. I am thankful that I am not alone in this endeavor. I am thankful that I have 2 1/2 weeks left, yet I am thankful thankful that I only have 2 1/2 weeks left. I don't think I could handle this transition much longer!

I had lunch with another recruit today. I was thankful to hear that I am not the only one who has unstable emotions! It is weird for this stoic girl to be gleeful and tearful all at the same time. I have become a pro at crying. Sometimes I think I might be able to make a career out of it someday! A dress made me tearful on tuesday. The irony. I was packing, and this dress is one of my favorites, I have had it for nearly 6 years, and it seems appropriate for almost any occasion...except Tanzania. Therefore, it did not make the cut. But although I was putting a bunch of stuff in the Goodwill Industries pile, and more stuff into a pile for a friend who is lovingly willing to take my winter clothes off of my hands, I couldn't bear to put this dress in either pile. I sat on my bed, and tears came, and I was like...this is stupid...it is a dress! I piece of fabric...I think I was crying for different reasons...in fact, I know I was...leaving is harder than I thought.

On a happier note, I got locked into my room last night. I had to laugh. That is all I could do. I shut the door, and the doornob came off! (the functional part was on the other side!) Thankfully my roomate was on her way home, my room is now cleaner, since I was locked in for about 20 minutes, and it allowed for a great talk with a friend...who also laughed about me being locked in the room!

Below I attached a few pictures from my trip with Tara to visit my Dad in Fort Lauderdale! We had an awesome trip, and had one day of sunny weather! What I wouldn't give for some solitude on a sunny beach these days...